i'm in a bad place. and not by choice. i mean, i don't WANT to be in a bad place. i don't want to feel like this. but thus is my life at this point and time. it's really difficult and everyday is a struggle. i wish i could put into words how absolutely beaten down i feel inside. how it is effecting every.single.other.thing in my life. how i can feel it in my chest with every breath i take. how it lingers inside me and doesn't go away. how much it's weighing me down- physically and emotionally.
and i'm just so tired of feeling this way.
i feel like i'm at a breaking point where there is only so much that one human being can take on a daily basis before they simply shut down. i feel like the giant and amazing spirit within me has been beaten into submission. like she has been clobbered into this tiny little speck and everytime she tries to stand up tall and proud, she gets smacked down again.
and i hate everything about that. even the fucking analogy. because it completely and utterly sucks. and it's 100% not me. so dealing with something like this, and feeling like this day after day is just not in my persona.
and it needs to change. because there is very little more of this i can mentally handle. you know?
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nope. it's not you AT ALL. i'm sorry, woman. call me if you want to talk.
Oh believe me...I KNOW! Hope things look up soon! XOXOXO
I am sorry things are rough for you right now. BTDT...it sucks...but there is hope...tomorrow is another day and a chance for things to improve.
Oh, I know all too well! I hope things fall back into place for you! And don't you love those morons who only read you to revel in your troubles? I kick mine in the eye on a daily basis!
take solace in the fact that karma has a way of leveling the field. It may not be today or tomorrow or even next year but someday when they least expect it............0.....right between the eyes and all of a sudden the path is clear and you can laugh. No matter what IT is things WILL even out. Easy to say, harder to live.
Oooo i know...maybe all too well these days. It's ok to not share what you're going through...it is the internet and all :)- Lol
I pray that whatever has got you down so passes quickly and brings you back your spunk!!! It's easier said than done right? Yep...one day at a time...it will get better...it has to.
{{Hugs}}
I hope that things get better for you and that everything works out okay. Hugs over the internet to you...
Me too babe, me too.
Am no help, except to tell you that I adore you and I hope life stops sucking very fucking soon.
I agree with Jill. What comes around goes around and they'll get theirs. As for you, hang in there. I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way. And the good news is, Reese's Peanut Butter Hearts are now at Target. :)
I'm so sorry, J.
I know. I so know. Everything you described is how I've spent the better part of 2009.
I'm thinking about you. I love you and I hope you find your happy really soon, friend!
XOXOOXOXO
I don't see why you can't just spill all your problems on your blog, I mean it's only the internet right?
I'm sorry you are feeling sucky! Sucky sucks!
But just so you know, I still love you whether you're feeling sucky or not.
I hope things turn around for you soon!
I've been hanging in that place lately, too. I'm sorry. It's no fun, even if we are in there together. :(
I'm sorry life is sucky. Internet thoughts your way!!
I am so sorry!! everything is going to be ok!!
ps thank you so much of your fabulous happy birthday wishes to me!! they mean so much! thank you, I really appreciate it!!
Ah shit Jen, thats crap. I hope you feel better soon. I can totally relate to how you are feeling. Fucking life!
I like to find humor in all things. And I went through a whole bunch of crap that weighed me down. And it blows. I hope things look up! Love your blog.
Jenn:
I'm sorry you're feeling the way you feel....I hope things will happy up for you soon!! :)
:::hugs:::
P.S.: For some reason, I have the Partridge Family theme song in my head..."c'mon get happy." Hee! :)
-A
I'm not really sure what to say, other than I hope things will get better. Here are some quotes I found...maybe they'll help? If not, at least they'll give you a good laugh. :)
"Always remember, you're unique. Just like everyone else." -- Anonymous
from Big Brother 7 TV show:
Ericka: "Sometimes life throws you a curve ball."
George: "Sometimes life throws you a cannon ball!!"
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" ~Dr. Seuss
John Quincy Adams:
Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.
Robert Frost:
The best way out is always through.
Elbert Hubbard:
Life is just one damned thing after another.
All God's angels come to us disguised. ~James Russell Lowell
I used to have a handle on life, then it broke.
In just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday.
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on... -Robert Frost
And now, some random quotes to laugh at:
"Foosh. Aaughh!!"
"Foosh. Aauuggghh!!"
Cold spray deodorant....
Why is "abbreviation" such a long word?
When your pet bird sees you reading the newspaper, does he wonder why you're just sitting there, staring at carpeting?
I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once.
When cheese gets its picture taken, what does it say?
Wear short sleeves! Support your right to bare arms!
Aww ... big hugs. I know it doesn't make you feel any better, but just about everybody I know is feeling the exact same way lately. I'm sorry! : (
Oh - and remember how you said you wanted to WIN a calendar from Twenty Four at Heart? I'll be have a few up for grabs on Tuesday. But shhhhh! Don't tell anyone until I announce it!
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