Monday, January 04, 2010

teach me how to relax

it turns out that i really don't know how to relax. i don't mean that in a bad way.. like i can't chill the fuck out or something. it's just that i don't know how to sit on my phat ass, and do nothing for an entire day.

case in point.... i had the week off of work and we didn't have plans to go anywhere or do anything. and i realized that the whole time, i was searching the house for things to reorganize, or rearrange, or do. i rearranged blake's entire bedroom. it looks awesome. boyfriend and i went and bought and put up shelving for our downstairs living room. we went electronics shopping. we rearranged and got rid of a couch. we moved a recliner from one room to another.

and the baking.

have i mentioned the baking? i might have experimented with about 6 different kinds of frostings and 4 or 5 different flavors of cupcakes. trying to create things from scratch is hard (and not always yummy).
mini cupcakes

but the point is that apparently, I CANNOT SIT STILL. so while i have every intention of relaxing and just chilling-

so i had to get away. i decided at breakfast one morning that i would drive to my mom's and stay the night. i needed to get the hell out of the house and at least do that drive. i love driving. i love the space and time it gives me to think. and sing. out loud. where no one else can hear me. it was just what i needed. and i got to see my grandpa (HI GRANDPA!!!!).

and even though my drive down the mountain from tahoe took a billion years, there was a part of me that was grateful for the traffic. because since we were stopped 90% of the time, i got to take pictures. i wouldn't have gotten to do that otherwise. see?

tree obsession



even that small amount of time to get away was nice to get out of town.. get out of the house, and make me feel like i did SOMETHING, you know? i needed it. i need to make a lot of changes happen this year. i yearn for all things positive and i've been feeling negative for way too long. i don't like anything about it. more on that later.


Jill said...

Well crap woman look at what you do everyday. Your body is used to moving and flying around and running to do things what do you expect your body to do? You can't just yell "BODY YOUR ON VACATION NOW YOU DUMBFU_K!" because it won't the frig listen anyway.

I have found walking does it for me. I had to friggen force myself to do it at first but as you walk and look at things and then stop to photograph them like I do, you do settle down enough to relax. I walk the beach every morning. Rain or shine. Then I can settle down with my tea and chill until something else takes my attention.

Driving relaxes me to. Of course the state patrol who pulled up to me yesterday as I was blazing through town with my fav music going at full blast. He pulls up to my side and looks ta me and with his hand makes the circle with his hand as if he is turning the radio down.......oppps sorry damn!

Alison said...

Your cupcakes look so yummy! I'm happy to taste test anytime. :)

If I don't have to be anywhere at a specific time, I don't mind sitting in traffic. If you're alone, it gives you lots of thinking and singing time. :)

Anonymous said...

Awesome photos! (Cupcakes included..yumm!)

I love how the snow just packed itself perfectly ontop of the shack. If you'd try to make it that way yourself, it wouldn't be near the same way as nature did it. How neat! :)

Back to the cupcakes...what flavors of cupcakes and icings? (If you don't mind sharing.) They all look good!

Anonymous said...

I'm that way, too. I usually end up playing on the computer, because that way it feels like I'm DOING something.

Annie said...

send me some cupcakes, please! ;)
i don't think there is anything wrong with being a busy body but relaxing is necessary too! i'm glad you decided to get away for a day and visit some family.
driving relaxes me a little too much, i tend to nod and road trips do not mix.
love the photos you took!
happy new year hun! best of luck keeping that positive attitude, i'm working on the same thing ;)

Gingers Mom said...

Mmmmm....frosting. Is it bad that is about all I got from this post. I saw cupcakes and froze into lustful unnatural attraction to the frosting....

Pamela said...

i just stopped in from jason's single sentence soup... and i think you might just be me.

hang in there... and i'll be back to read more.