blake has always been a terrible sleeper. as a baby and toddler, he would not got to bed at night. as a single mom for many years, there were days where i literally wanted to rip my hair out of my freaking head. days where i dreaded coming home from work because i was going to have to deal with blake and the fact that the kid would not fucking go to sleep before midnight EVERY.SINGLE.NIGHT. it was exhausting. and i felt like i never had time to decompress or relax. and it happened everyday.
his sleeping habits got better once he started school. he would actually go to bed and fall asleep at a decent (normal) hour. then he started getting a little bit older and well, that decent hour didn't hold sleep the way it used too. i definitely have a night owl- which is totally fine. i'm the same way, so whatever.
but here is where the problem lies. blake is completely terrified when it comes to night and falling asleep. he starts thinking about horrifying things. like people breaking in. he freaks out at the thought of someone getting into the house, and he torments himself with what he would have to do if that happened. and what i would do. or what boyfriend would do. and he is freaked out about the planes that fly over our house. he freaking thinks they are going to drop bombs on us. (now this is where i'm like... fucking war movies, war video games, this is why he does not need to be so fucking obsessed with war at this age... he can't seperate it in his mind) he spazzes out about every sound, every move, every anything. he gets wrecked. (and let's not even start talking about the kind of nightmares this kid has. that's another post in itself)
in all honesty too, blake was fine for quite some time. it seems like this nighttime ickiness has flared up since being away from us for a week. he came back from spending time with his dad to this fear of airplanes at night and not being able to sleep again. he can't think of anything that made this happen again. and we don't know either. and nothing works in regards to calming him down. no rational conversation makes him feel better. nothing makes him calm. it's like he cannot be reasoned with.
i remember being a kid and freaking out inside about noises and sounds and stuff. it was terrifying. but i feel like blake takes it to a different extreme. i don't know. it's just really hard and exhausting and sad.
do any of your kids do this? did you do this?! how do i fix it and help him?