so, my southern california bridal shower is this weekend! i know it's early, but if we didn't do it now, we wouldn't have time to do it before the wedding. blake's baseball starts soon and goes until the end of may- so we're showering now!
i.am.so.excited!!! it's a little weird too, because i've been freaking engaged since 2005. two.thousand.five. and i feel like i've been planning this wedding for a billion years- so to do something FOR it, that i'm NOT planning- just seems.. weird? but in like the coolest of weird ways ever! i am super excited to go home and be in southern cali. i miss it. i can't wait to see my family and friends! and to actually feel like a bride to be. i guess that's part of it. while i'm planning and stuff, i guess i don't REALLY feel like a bride. no, that's not entirely true. maybe other people throwing you parties is what makes you feel like a bride?! what the hell is wrong with me?
i hate when i get like this. you know, ramble and contradict myself in each sentence. that's when i should just shut up... but you know i won't. i could tell you about my dream last night. the one where i was 3 hours late to my very first bridal shower. but well, that was pretty much it. ha! okay, shutting up now.. for reals.