blake won't hug me at his school, in front of other kids.
i mean, it's been happening for awhile now- but dammit... everytime he turns and gives me that look that says, "please don't try to hug me mom. not now. not here. not in front of my friends..." my heart breaks just a little. so let me tell all of you moms out there with young kids who can't get enough of your hugs..... ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN. because as hard as it is to believe, there will come a day when they won't hug you in public. they will stop holding your hand when they walk. and no matter how many times you try to grab it, they won't let you.
and then you'll be forced to miss the days when they would run full speed to you because they wanted to hug you. they didn't care who was watching. they were so happy to see you they practically leapt into your arms, and squeezed your neck so tight, you could barely breathe. you'll miss it, because those days are now memories. and it's sad. even though it's completely expected and your head totally understands it- your heart hates it.
these are the days when i wish blakey face was little again. with his smooshy face, and deep voice... when he wasn't too proud to hold my hand. hell, he wouldn't walk without holding it. they grow up so fast. everyone says it, but it's true. so hold onto your little ones now. hold their hand as often as they'll let you. hug them in public as many times as you can. because even if it takes them longer than normal to stop doing all these things with you- they will eventually.... stop. and you're never fully prepared for it.